Surrender your will and you’ll get everything you want22Jun
Wow, it’s been a while since I have connected via this blog. Truth is, I’ve been having a lot of fun. I’ve been living my life to a whole new level since the last three years of hardship (due to my concussion). Since February 4th, something big shifted in my life: I’ve got my health back!
You might remember (or not), my last blog post, around January. I wrote about my decision to surrender to the fact that I might be living with a permanent health condition. I finally accepted not just that, but I welcomed my concussion to be a part of my life. It was a liberating moment, where I was able to accept myself fully and love all aspects of myself (including those aspects that I judged as “bad”, such as my health condition). By that point, I’ve tried every treatment I knew of, spent thousands of dollars to improve my health and countless hours doing recovery treatments.
I thought that there was nothing more that I could do, and that would be it: I will always suffer from the symptoms that left me fatigued constantly.
I won’t lie, I felt sad about it, but I was ready to accept my life “concussed”.
The next day, after I truly let go, I received a phone call from Jill, from One Hit Away Foundation. Jill has been guiding me throughout the last years to the right doctors in Austin and holding my hand as I walked through the pain of navigating a difficult brain injury in a new city, far from my home in Hawaii.
Jill made a connection with the Amen Clinics and told me that I was offered the opportunity to get treated in San Francisco to figure out what else needed to be done in order for me to heal and have a “normal” life again.
They flew me to San Francisco and I’ve got brain spect- scans performed and many tests during several days.
Finally, the results came back. My doctor said:
You can stay here all you want22Jan
Hey there. It’s been a long time since I’ve communicated with you. I am shifting gears on this blog from now on. I’ll be sharing my experiences through life in a more personal way.
This is not intended to be a “how to” blog anymore. It’s a journal where I will write what my heart needs to say. Maybe some of my words resonate with you or your experiences at some level. Today, my sharing is about self-love…
A few days ago, one of my best friends shared that she was fighting her personal health problem (extreme back pain), until it finally hit her: the more she tried to fight it and get rid of it, the harsher it was for her.
One morning she had a spiritual awakening and she finally told her back pain: “You can stay here all you want”.
The tension that she’s been fighting half her life, was no more. She broke through to the other side. Her pain didn’t subside, but she felt light and relieved. She was radiant and glowing as she was sharing this experience with me.
I realized how hard I’ve been fighting my concussion. I’ve been judging my brain injury as “bad”, “dark” and “negative”. I had no compassion for the hard work that my brain has been doing to keep me alive, functioning, focused and productive while healing.
This concussion has brought to the surface everything that I didn’t want to look at, nor admit that I have within me: sometimes it’s sadness that turns into depression. Sometimes it’s anger. Other times is impatience that turns into despair. I have been doing everything in my power to get rid of all of it.
I’ve realized that I judge the shit out of myself for having this condition. Sometimes I think that nobody will ever want to be with me because “I’m ruined”, or “messed up” because I can’t go through a full day without crashing physically and sometimes emotionally.
The greatest gift I could ever give you13Nov
It’s been a while since we’ve connected. Today is a very special day and I want to share it with with. Today it’s my birthday (I’m turning 35!) and I decided to do something very different, something special and new.
I realized that YOU have been a part of my journey for years: sharing with me about your dreams, life projects, sometimes frustrations or fears and also allowing me to share with you about my personal journey into Abundance.
On this special day, I want to give you the greatest gift I could ever give you.
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Taking the biggest leap of faith (And big changes coming for 2016!)30Jan
Have you ever faced a situation where you had to make a major decision that would change the course of your life?
Did your body cringe in fear, yet your soul knew it was exactly what you needed to do?
If you’ve ever found yourself facing a huge life change, you know exactly how much power a single moment in time can have: the moment you decide to do something totally new.
I’ve been through a major changing event in my life the past weeks. After eleven years living in Hawaii, I am moving to Austin.
I know, you may be thinking, Austin Texas? But there’s no surf there!
The blog post I never thought I would write…11Jan
This is a very special post. Last night I found out that my friend Michelle Pierson has passed away. My heart is broken. Michelle worked for me as a V.A for many years, since I started my online business in 2012.
She did all the behind the scenes of my blog posts, newsletters, webinars, workshops, everything. She was so much more than an assistant to me. She guided me to always chose to do what felt good to me. She always reminded me to come from a place of service to help others. She would put me back on track when I would get lost in business details and lose sight of my higher purpose.
She was “the coach behind the coach”. I trusted her with all aspects of my business as I would trust my own sister.
In December we had the most amazing, true conversation. We left behind our business roles, talked for a good hour on the phone and laughed our hearts out sharing experiences that we were going through.
The seven questions to ask yourself that will help you make any decision in life24Oct
Lately I’ve been presented with a “dream” project. A project that would pay me great money and propel me to huge exposure in my career. Something that I’ve prayed for to happen in the past has been presented to me at a time that felt like the “perfect time” to do it.
But there was a problem:
There was an energy behind it that was harsh.
Boundaries were overstepped.
I didn’t feel safe.
I didn’t feel comfortable.
For a few days, I tried to “make it work” in my mind. “Oh, I can do this. I only have to push through for a few weeks and then it will be done. I’ll get the money and all the glitz and glam that comes around with this”.
But in truth, as I started asking myself a few questions, I realized that I can’t make it work.
I don’t want to make it work.
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